For all my frineds who read this: I want you to know that you mean the world and sooooooo much more to me! I could never fully express how much you guys and girls mean to me!

I have some top friends and here you are:

1) Gage

2)Mandy

3)Loli

4)Mike

5)Bonni

6)Amber

7)Jessi

8)Dalton

9)Daniel

10)Devan

11)Kandi

12)Nad

13)Stephy

14)Samm

15)Stepheny

16)Amy

17)Melissa

18)Michelle

19)Tink

20)Kami

I love you all will all my heart!

Today fucking sucked! It was filled with mixed emotions! We were all really ahppy to be back at school; where we could all hang out and get away from our familys than something REALLY bad happen. We found out that Dalton's dad killed himself...I never thought this could happen to us. You see people get this crap in movies but not in real life. I am just waiting for someone to scream "it's a joke!"

I never thought someone soooo close to us all could do that. I mean I have had friends kill themselfs in the past...but that's just it IN THE PAST!

Everyone keeps telling us (me and my friends) that it will hurt less in time, but the thing is it hurts now.

I'm flipping pissed off! My damn mom is telling me she's going to take me away from my dad! I don't want to leave him! He's the best dad in the world! He's never hit me like she has! He's never made me do something I didn't want to like she has! He's never called me fat like she has! He's never told me I was a freak like she has!

 I HATE HER!!!!!!!!!!!

Here's the update!

Not alot has been going on here, I got my eye-brow re-pierced and x-mas is comeing up!

I bought the new H.i.M CD. It's really good!!!! I got back with my love Gage. It's going really good. This will be our first X-mas together, even though it is out 4th time dating. I cut my hair and re-dyed it AGAIN. Other than that not a lot's goign on.

Here are the lyrics to the new H.i.M song!

HIM LYRICS

"Killing Loneliness"

Memories, sharp as daggers
Pierce into the flesh of today
Suicide of love took away all that matters
And buried the remains in an unmarked grave in your heart

With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me,
Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you
I'm killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb
I'm killing loneliness

Nailed to the cross, together
As solitude begs us to stay
Disappear in the lie forever
And denounce the power of death over our souls and secret words are said to start a war

With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me,
I'm killing loneliness with you
I'm killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb
I'm killing loneliness

Killing loneliness

With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me